dad's in hospital
after all that worrying,praying,discussing,consulting several specialists...my dad has finally done his op...i wasnt very worried...cos i know tt dad will get better after the op...i know mum n everyone worrys..but seldom anyone in the family talks much about it...we'll ask bout details...e procedures...but it'll end there...we dun go further to discuss e 'wat ifs'
maybe i'm 2 complacent...i've only always seen my family members well and healthy (other then ur usual fevers n flus) theres really no big cause to worry...
but today when i saw i dad unconscious on the bed n w all that ubes n needles on him...i cant help crying...i was warned to be mentally prepared...i tried to imagine wat it'll be like...but it all didnt help...it's jus not e same...reality smacked me in e face...hard...n harsh
it really hurts to see my dad like tat...how can anyone be prepared for that? honestly i've seen such things before but seeing dad like that...
well i'm glad its all over...hope he'll recover fast n soon...i cant share the pain for him...i really want to...how can anyone endure a 12 inch cut on their chest! and its on my dad's body...
i told myself not to cry...but i cant help it...mum was crying too...we cant help it...
well theres always comic relieves...after dinner at e canteen in the NUH (e food sucks) we went up to see dad before leaving...and as i walked past e nursery...i came across this little window where parents get 2 see their newborns...i tried 2 see if there r any babies but there were only empty cots...so both my aunt n my mum went up w curiosity 2...n mum ended up bumping her head on e window panel...hahahaha....we laughed sooooo hard our sides hurt...but it was nice 2 see mum laughing...i wan her 2 be happy, to know that everything is going 2 be alright...
tmr i'm going 4 another job interview...cross my fingers n hope for e best...then go see my dad...
i hope he'll be fine...
good night for now
posted by pearlewurly @ 6/08/2004 10:09:00 pm
